5 min read
I heard some surprising feedback yesterday from my host. Instead of ramping up to meet the end of the internship deadline, I should be winding down because there's not much left to do. A couple of the big things I had to do were also on other teammates' to-do lists so they actually took things on themselves even though I offered to do the tasks. Pretty much now I have to add proper unit tests for one thing and possibly one last bit of logic to a component.
6 min read
Today was the day that I officially scheduled my onsite interviews for my last Tuesday at Google. After talking with my mentor as usual during our Monday morning meeting, I was was reminded that I still had to do that so I asked my recruiter for anytime in the afternoon. I thought they would be on separate days but they ended up being back-to-back. In fact, there was no break at all planned, I actually specifically had to ask for a 15 minute break between rounds in case I have to do a brief mental recovery like I did for my internship interviews after the first one kind of went like a trainwreck. Now I have 3 weeks for my anxiety levels to hit new all-time highs.
7 min read
WARNING Possibly the longest post since "What a Day" but it's got some funny moments WARNING
I don't remember much of yesterday besides the fact that I was in one rotten mood. I had a meeting with my manager hoping to get some tips on how to improve my internship performance and let him know what I got done this week. Instead it turned into a code review in which the code I sent in (that I thought was all set since I tested it and it worked as expected) wasn't right. I left feeling upset and embarrassed and made a note to fix it.
4 min read
Finally I actually managed to go to sleep at a reasonable hour last night -- somewhere around 10 pm. Unfortunately this meant I woke up at 4 and couldn't go back to sleep. I couldn't stop wondering whether I'd finally feel like I should be working here if I managed to get hired full-time (Another Googler on the other side of the world told me today the Impostor Syndrome only gets worse).
4 min read
I actually wasn't planning on working at all this weekend. Honest. I was annoyed Friday night because the person taking over for my host for the apartment was making a racket past 2 am when I had planned on going to sleep at a reasonable hour and getting up early to spend all of Saturday cramming on algorithms. Instead I gave up on my plan and ended up getting up at 4 pm. The ironic thing is I just went to a "sleeposium" on Thursday during work to get tips on sleeping better. This was one of the things the guest speaker advised against.